Finding meaning in life’s Manifestations

๐Ÿ’ŒRecently I’ve been experiencing some let’s say, “odd” occurances but honestly maybe they have been here all along and now I’m just more aware of their presence. I feel as though a Ruby can attest to this as well, I have had a “thought” of a feeling of whatever sort and then it’s presented into my life in some manner without me having to do much to bring into fruition. That’s not saying I haven’t worked my ass off to get where I am nor has my experiences in life not helped, they have immensely. What I mean more so is, like this… I was sitting down with my therapist (whom has become like a best friend to me, love her… I’ll introduce you to her more later)

๐Ÿ’Œ okay back to the story, I was sitting there and she asked me, ” Amira if you suddenly had endless resources and endless money what would you do?” I said I would start a clinic where we helped people in a multitude or ways to a wide demographic. For example PTSD specialist that were also veterans to help new vets, help them during the transition into civilian life and how to cope. Because not being a vet myself but being the girlfriend of a decorated Marine veteran I see first hand and feel on a secondary level the pain and agony he is in and only the help of another vet could be effective with the proper tools. Also another could be animal therapy for special needs children. I brought up ideas like this and it sounded amazing.

๐Ÿ’Œ Then we stopped and she said “ok. I love that but let’s look at this more… would you be in charge of everything or work directly with clients?” I responded with, “a little of both I guess I want it to be integrated I want science, holistic medicine and spirituality to meet… I want to get a taste of it all” she said, “that sounds wonderful but sweetie to do that you would need a hospital yet retreat like setting, thousands of employees, state of the art equipment and not to mention a research facility as well” (I forgot to mention I want it to be non profit too). No amount of money or resources at this time could create what I had written up.

๐Ÿ’Œ for a second after she said all of this I felt kind of defeated (hmmm I though to my self, well shit maybe I can’t do what I want to do? Maybe I should give up? Maybe I can’t ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ˜•) but then I stepped away from my negative feeling pulling me in and thought about it logically: why would I want to set my self up for failure? What is it that I truly want? Honestly still trying to uncover that! (In due time๐Ÿ’›) we end our session talking about the ups and downs (the waves) of life and how I have these amazing ideas then when I fail or something doesn’t go right, I fall and its devastating, what we want is the middle ground where peace and growth can happen and where I can thrive.

๐Ÿ’ŒSo sessions over and I should mention I’ve been jobless for a few weeks (you would have quit without a job too ๐Ÿคฆโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ) if you can imagine I’m starting to stress, applying for 50+ jobs a day! I excel in 2 areas; health care and child care. Well being a nanny pays more and I needed a change of scenery from my 11 cumulative yrs working in healthcare as a CNA. I had worked as a nanny before and was much more qualified than your normal caregiver.

๐Ÿ’ŒSo I applied, had a few interviews nothing felt right and was super close to taking a job but something was off about it, then I happened to have a phone interview with this amazing mom and we instantly clicked but she was going on a vacation, so she couldn’t do an in person interview until the following Friday! So after consulting my mom (yes I’m 30 and still go to my mom for advice lol) I told her of my options and she said “Rosy I think the position you are waiting on sounds much better suited for you that the one offering you the job currently.” I agreed and prayed and then called the lady who had just offered me a job and said I had to sadly decline because another offer had come about. I then Immediately called the other mom and in so many words said, “girl I’m with you lol let’s set up that meeting” she was ecstatic!

๐Ÿ’ŒThe week passed and Friday came. We met in person at the clinic she owns. I met her amazing little girl and just as I have imagined we were a perfect team. I took both sides of the position she offers, 1 side is an Administrative Manager at her clinic and the other is as a Nanny for her little girl. I started this job a week ago.

๐Ÿ’Œ At 30 yrs old I can say I have NEVER in my life felt so happy or fulfilled in a job so early into starting. I get paid what I’m worth, my boss treats me with dignity and respect, so do my co workers… if you knew anything about my last job you would know this is 100x different and better my old boss had it out for me, I swear.

๐Ÿ’ŒMy point of this thought is, I had happily started my new job last monday and went to a session with rochelle on Tuesday and shared the good news with her and then began to explain to her, I’m working as an admin manager at a speech a occupational therapy clinic owned by this awesome woman whom I also nanny for…

๐Ÿ’ŒRochelle sat there staring at me and said, “Amira don’t you see what’s happened? Your thoughts you had, in some form, have come to fruition! I stopped and was in awe! So much of the stuff I had wrote about in some sense of the matter had come true. I was part of something important but I wasn’t putting myself in a position to crash and burn. I was letting myself thrive!!

๐Ÿ’Œ I hope the perspective gained from this is, things may not be exactly what we thought up in our minds but they may manifest themselves in an ever better fashion to suit us as individuals in just the right manner. โฃ


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